A Writer's Journey

May 14, 2018

Confessions of a Fandom “Old”

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I have been fangirling for a long time, probably since childhood though I didn’t realize it. However, I mark my official start in the world of fandom at the age of 13 when my friend Eowyn (yes, her real name) introduced me to fanfiction and fan art for our favorite animes—Sailor Moon, Ronin Warriors and Gundam Wing.

So, yes, I’ve been participating in fandom for almost two decades. I’ve bounced around different fandoms, from the three I mentioned above to Harry Potter to Lord of the Rings to, of course, Once Upon a Time (specifically Outlaw Queen).

I’ve come to grips that I am now a fandom old. That I’ve been around fandom so long, I’ve kinda seen it all and am not very surprised when shenanigans happen. It just seems to be the same song, different fandom.

Yet sometimes, I can still be surprised and shocked at how low a fandom can sink. As much as I love the Once Upon a Time fandom and know it is filled with amazing, beautiful and kind people, there still can be a very ugly side to the fandom as well. And I know it’s not unique in the changing world of fandom.

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April 23, 2018

A Dance for a Rainy Day

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Pitter Patter.

Pitter Patter.

Pitter Patter.

Emily curled up on the couch, listening to the sound of the rain as it beat against her window. She left the lights off, so her room was more grayish than not. With her blanket wrapped around her, it was the perfect way to spend this rainy afternoon.

“Are you sitting in the dark for a reason?” her husband asked, entering the living room.

“It’s atmospheric,” she replied. “I like it.”

He chuckled. “Is there room for one more under that blanket?”

“Of course,” she said, holding it up so that he could climb in with her. Once he was lying behind her, Emily wrapped them in the blanket and curled closer to his warmth.

Andrew breathed out and she felt him relax. “This is nice.”

“It is,” she agreed. “I love rainy days.”

“Oh, I know that.” He kissed her forehead as they cuddled together, the rain lulling them into a dream-like state.

She wasn’t sure if seconds or hours had passed when he shifted next to her, rolling onto his back. He pulled her on top of him, rubbing her back. “You asleep?”

“Almost,” she murmured, nuzzling his shirt. “Why?”

“I was just thinking…Listen to the rain,” he told her.

Pitter.

Pitter Patter.

Pitter Pitter Patter.

Pitter Patter Patter Pitter.

Pitter Patter Pitter Pitter Patter.

She smiled, opening her eyes to look at him. “It has a very good beat.”

“I love a good beat,” he replied, eyes sparkling with joy. “Dance with me.”

Emily lifted her head, giving him an amused smile. “Right now?”

He nodded, sitting up. “Come on, Em. Dance with me to the song of the rain.”

“You’re a dork, you know that?” she asked fondly. She still took his hand as they stood from the couch and let him lead her to the middle of their living room.

Andrew took her hand in his while placing his free one on her hip. They started to sway to only a melody they could hear, accompanied by the sound of rain drops on the windowpane.

It was the perfect way to spend a rainy Spring day.

March 12, 2018

Oops, I Did It Again

I know with how off topic I’ve been lately, you might be worried that this is an ode to Britney Spears’ hit song from the late 90s. Don’t worry, it’s not.

No, no, I have another reason to invoke her song title. Because I have done something again.

I put The Christmas Wish on the backburner and so technically stalled it. Again.

deep sigh

Once again, it’s because of my other fanfiction. I’m still trying to wrap up my Valentine’s Day story (it’s coming. I can feel it nearing the end) but I’m also about to head into the prompt party. So that’s going to take a lot of my time because there’s another button on the line.

I want that button.

Sorry. These buttons are serious business in our fandom.

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February 20, 2018

How I Celebrated Valentine’s Day

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I know I didn’t post something for Valentine’s Day. You’d think with my main focus being on romance, I would’ve marked the holiday dedicated to it. I did…just not on this blog.

Once again, I participated in Love From OQ. What is that, you ask? Well, it probably won’t surprise you to know that it’s part of my participation with the Outlaw Queen fandom. It’s pretty much a Secret Santa but with a Valentine’s Day spin. We all signed up and someone assigned us Valentine’s. We then made contact anonymously to find out what kind of gifts they wanted and then got to work.

I was assigned someone who I actually had in a Secret Santa I participated in and was eager to write again. Though she requested angst and I was a bit wracked on an angsty idea. (I probably would’ve handled a fluffy idea a lot easier). It took me more time than I would’ve liked to figure out an idea and I went through a few before finally figuring one out.

Of course, it was eight days before Valentine’s Day when I managed to do that.

So naturally I was slightly panicked. I had only eight days to write everything and get it up. The heat was on.

What did I do? I pretty much put everything on hold and just focused on that story. And I did some research on my phone while I was at work, looking up lymphoma and its treatments to craft my story. Then I spent my nights just writing and writing, trying to get the story out.

It’s a big story, though, bigger than I anticipated and I’m still trying to get it all out. However, I did manage to get the first 10,000 words up in time for Valentine’s Day, so go me! My goal is to finish it before February is over and I think I can do it.

I just need to focus and write my ass off.

Wish me luck!

February 5, 2018

2018: Chapter 1

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Have you ever seen those inspirational pictures where they refer to the days as pages and the year as a book of your life? Well, I have. It made me think—if each day is a page, that means each month would be a chapter. So I’ve decided to do a round up of each “chapter” of my 2018.

Let’s check out how January or “Chapter 1” went for me!

It started out pretty well though very, very cold as most of the country was gripped by a cold front. My aunt and I flew home from Virginia and I prepared to head back to work for the New Year. The first work week of January, though, was shorter than usual since a snow storm blew in on Thursday and my office was closed both that day and Friday.

A few days after that, my parents flew down to Florida to go to Walt Disney World (without me) and I had the house to myself. Unfortunately, I threw off my sleep schedule, using falling asleep for a few hours when I got home and then being up for most of the night. I managed to right myself that weekend though.

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January 15, 2018

Time to Knuckle Down

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It’s a New Year!

Time for some new habits!

Starting today, January 15th, I will start to convert The Christmas Wish from an Outlaw Queen fanfiction into an original work with hopes of publishing it for next Christmas. I know I should probably dive right back in with the Big Project, but I feel like I would need to finish this first so I can meet my self-imposed deadline.

Then I will jump start the Big Project. I’ll let you know when.

I’ve decided to go back to my old system—a half hour a day dedicated to The Christmas Wish and then working on everything else. Which means I’ll have to figure out a new way to work on my fanfics—maybe putting them on a rotating schedule. I don’t want to neglect them.

I’ll check in every so often, I promise.

Wish me luck!

January 1, 2018

My 2018 Anticipations

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Happy New Year! I hope 2018 is a lot less stressful than 2017 turned out to be for everyone!

As I’ve done for the past few years, I’m sharing my anticipations for 2018. I don’t like the word “resolution” and feel that’s just setting myself for failure. But if I anticipate something…well…that’s different.

So here are my anticipations for the year:

  • Work on The Christmas Wish with aim of self-publishing by Christmas
  • Jump start the Big Project and work for self-publishing in 2019
  • Finish “Better When I’m Dancing” and start to turn my Soldier Verse drabbles into a proper story
  • Work on some original pieces
  • Network more with authors, both in and out of fandom
  • Continue my regular posting schedule on this blog
  • Read 13 books this year
  • Review more books on my other blog

And on a personal note:

  • Exercise more and lose some weight

So those are my anticipations. Here’s a toast to 2018 and wish that it’s not as crazy as 2017 was.

Please share your own anticipations for 2018 in the comments. I’d love to read them!

    December 25, 2017

    Christmas Lights

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    It was cold.

    She rubbed her hands together as they were getting cold despite the gloves she wore. Her nose had lost feeling a while ago and she could feel her body trembling. Yet she waited, knowing it would be worth it in the end.

    “I’ve brought hot chocolate,” he said, holding out a thermos. “You want some?”

    “Thank you.” She took it, smiling at the man. Like her, he came up here every Christmas Eve. She never asked him his name and he never asked for hers. They just sat on the hoods of their cars, watching the city below.

    He watched as she poured some hot chocolate into a cup and then took the thermos from her. Instead of going back to his car, though, he lingered. “May I join you?”

    “Umm, sure…” She scooted over a bit so he had some room to sit on her hood.

    Their shoulders brushed as they watched the sun set over the hills. “Almost time,” he said.

    She nodded, sipping the hot chocolate. “This is good. Thanks again for it.”

    “You’re welcome,” he replied before they fell into an awkward silence again.

    Setting aside her hot chocolate, she held out her hand. “I’m Noelle, by the way.”

    He chuckled. “Noelle? How appropriate.”

    “Thank you.” When he didn’t say anything else, she leaned closer. “And you are…?”

    “Kris,” he replied. “Like Kris Kringle.”

    She giggled, trying to hide it behind her hand. “Sorry. It’s probably not funny.”

    “No, it kinda is. I’ve come to accept it.” He winked at her and she flushed.

    “I get it, though,” she said. “I’m a Christmas baby and I was teased mercilessly.”

    “Christmas baby as in…?”

    She nodded. “Tomorrow is my birthday.”

    “Is it as bad as I’ve heard?”

    “I think it depends on your parents,” she replied. “Mine are pretty good at trying to separate the two, so it’s not as sucky. But I’ve never had a birthday with my friends on my birthday. When I was little, that’s all I wanted. I even asked Santa for it.”

    He smiled. “I doubt he could give you that.”

    “No, he couldn’t, though he did leave a very nice apology letter and a doll wrapped in birthday wrapping paper,” she said.

    “Santa was considerate.”

    She laughed. “Yes, he was.”

    “Today’s my birthday,” Kris said, sipping his own hot chocolate. “I’ve escaped my birthday party.”

    “What? Why?” She set down her drink, focused on him now.

    “Because everyone gets overly cheery in trying to pretend that my birthday isn’t Christmas Eve and after awhile, I need a break from all the attention, you know?”

    Noelle nodded. “I guess so.”

    “So, I come here and watch the lights with you,” he continued. “Then I go and get a drink at a nearby bar with my friends.”

    “That actually sounds great.”

    Kris nodded before looking out over the little town they called home. “It’s about to start.”

    They both fell silent as church bells rang to welcome the evening. Houses began to light up, block by block, until the whole town was illuminated in bright reds, greens, blues, yellows and whites. She could make out some Santas as well as several reindeer and an army of snowmen. There were also a few Nativities and a bunch of stars shining below them.

    It was a Christmas Eve tradition though no one knew why everyone started to wait for the bells to ring to turn on their lights. Noelle had discovered how beautiful they were from that particular overlook and that’s when she had met Kris. And now they were on their way to becoming friends.

    “Beautiful,” he said.

    She smiled. “It is. People are definitely missing out.”

    “I agree,” he replied. “But I hope they don’t catch on. I like this being our own private thing.”

    “Me too,” Noelle agreed.

    Kris hopped off her hood. “Well, now that we know each other’s names and that our birthdays are so close together, care to join me for my birthday drink?”

    “I’d love to.” She hopped off as well. “Where are we going?”

    “Just follow me. It’s not far away.” He headed toward his car.

    Noelle smiled before catching sight of his thermos. She held it up. “Do you want this?”

    He grinned, leaning against his door. “Give it to me at the bar. That way I’ll know you will follow me.”

    “Don’t trust me?” She leaned against her car again, grinning at him as well.

    “I do,” he said. “But a little insurance never hurt, right?”

    Noelle laughed and placed the thermos in her car. “See you there.”

    He nodded, getting the car. Together, they turned on their lights and soon pulled away from the spot. Behind them, the Christmas lights twinkled and beckoned them to a night they would never forget.

    December 18, 2017

    Year in Review: 2017

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    So, we’re at the end of the year. Next week, Christmas, I have a special short story I wrote last year but missed Christmas so I set it up for this year. And then after that is New Year’s, which will have my anticipations for 2018.

    For now, though, I would like to review how 2017 went for me. Let’s start with my anticipations for the year:

    Continue to post regularly here on WordPress.

    I’d say I’ve been pretty successful at this. Maybe I could’ve been better, but overall, I succeeded.

    Post a flash fiction a day on my tumblr.

    I tried but I ended up falling off sometime around the mid-year. I just ended up focusing on other things—like my Soldier Verse prompts.

    Work on the Big Project and self publish it by the end of the year.

    I’ve written about this lately. You all know what happened to the Big Project and my plans for it in the New Year.

    Work on the Christmas Project and self publish it by Christmas.

    Yeah. Didn’t get to do this.

    Get back on a regular fanfiction posting schedule.

    Where’s a laughing gif when you need one? I think I even threw myself off more this year due to a switch in my work schedule.

    Network with more writers, both in fandom and out of it.

    I met a few writers—both online and in person. So I guess that counts? They were mostly fandom, though, but I’m not complaining about that…

    Continue to try to read a book a month.

    Well, I didn’t really succeed with once a month. However, my goal for the year was 12 books and I surpassed it with 13. So I’m going to count this as a success.

    Write more book reviews for my blog.

    I’m on track to have 18 reviews for this year, which is equal to the amount I published in 2014. I probably could’ve done more—maybe gone back and reviewed a few older books—but I’m impressed with this amount.

    So my 2017 wasn’t too bad. I discovered a new Outlaw Queen universe—the Soldier Verse—and participated in a bunch of fandom related writing events. Those were definitely fun!

    In two weeks, I’ll set my anticipations for 2018! Stay tuned!

    November 27, 2017

    NaNoWriMo 2017 Wrap Up

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    I know there’s still almost a week left but I’m calling it now: I’m not winning NaNoWriMo this year. And it won’t be a record breaking year either.

    I’m okay with that.

    This year just wasn’t my year. I never really felt either of my stories. I thought I was excited about both but nothing really ever took off. My second attempt just seems too out of character for Regina and I’m not sure I can salvage it—as a fanfiction. I think it might work as an original story, though.

    I’ll have to see.

    Not feeling my options were a big reason why I’m not going to win. I know that. I did finish an 11k one shot for this year’s Outlaw Queen Advent Calendar but that didn’t have anything to do with it (except be the reason why I had no writing to add on Friday). I had the same thing last year but still managed to write a lot then—but I really was into my project last year.

    Maybe next year will be better. And maybe I’ll return to an original work then. We’ll see.

    How was your NaNo?

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